Dear s855005,
I think about that all the time,too!!
I have the same feeling you have, too.

But!!

Something good always happens!!

I think there is one thing you are luckier than me,

YOU can have AUTHENTIC Chinese food everyday!!
( I don't know how to cook )

If I can have those night market foods tomorrow,
I will not think about dying for awhile.

Hope you feel better, one day at a time!!

Remember!!
SOMETHING GOOD ALWAYS HAPPENS!!
TO YOU!!