'Both of them don't know why, but the quest has to be continue, hence

the struggle. Maybe love, maybe guts, all Christmas trees need

color lightbulbs for decoration anyway.'



Yes I agree with what you say "the quest has to be continue, hence

the struggle." And the warmth from Cheng's family has to be shown for a while.

A while should be far far far enough. This is my point of view. I am an old girl and gradually give up the coldness/crulelty part of me/to myself and somehow I decide to take the role as the warmth giver for a while then get back my freedom after some effort. Freedom is more important. I don't see Cheng is as free as Jeremy Irons-his both roles. I don't think Chinese guys are as intelligent as Nabokov. They are only paper tiger.



*** I think Cheng is a man who falls into sleep.--according to The Fourth Way. I despise him but I have some little sympathy because he thinks he has been given a gifts from God. This illusion is a joke guys/women like to hold on. ***



But anyway I don't know about men no matter what their origianity are.



I even don't know about myself, that is my main issue in this life to know.

I am more interested in understanding myself.



"The beauty lies in men's mind constantly trying to rationalize and convince themselves that they can cheat their ultimate fate."

Umum I will observe it later on from all those male friends...



"True love has never been hand in hand with guts nor courage. "

Really?

Somehow I usually tell my girl friends that what we need is to have courage to love our men to have courage to feel the hurt we maybe experince later...



"The world moves on; everything we have been drawn into eventually

becomes part of the ashes of time. Or does it?"

Sure... sometimes I am tired to live. In order to live we have to struggle ...

And the sad part is that even the ashes still needs fire to form. The struggle is inevitable. We couldn't just give up. How I once wish I don't need to live to become...



"love, even if never fully expressed, somehow lasts forever."

YES ...

So I said when people have courage /guts they might transform their love into pure form. In doing so requires COURAGE too.



Nice talking to you